I doubt if I´ll say that your cherished one is knowingly yet undeniably playing with your mind that you would believe me..why would you..and why would I care in the first place?
Because doing that we are all a part of a lie, a part of a sad moreover degrading play and therefore one by one people are starting to drift away because they're week to tell the truth and they don't want to participate in it..don't want to take the responsibility or to give a helping hand which may open their eyes but which may put themselves in an inconvenient and unknown situation. Isn't it just easier to turn your back or not to notice..
I WANT TO UNDERSTAND
I do..but I can't
I want to understand why are people consent to live a self-defeating life.
I'm constantly thinking about my mother. Why can't she just dump the bloody cad whose main purpose in life is to get drunk supersonically, piss himself, puke all over the place, pass out for weeks or to spend his spare time in the casinos leaving her with all the consequences? I used to think that he was the reason of all her troubles and misery but I was wrong - it's her whose doing it. She is destroying herself and she can't even see what she's causing with her actions. The impact to her little son and daughter who can't even stand up for themselves yet..who have the nice and warm picture about mummy and daddy..
I want to know why her partners tend to be alcoholics, why my granddad is an alcoholic and was his father the same..
I want to understand why she thought that killing herself would solve all the problems. I want to understand why she wants sympathy while sympathy for me is just another smirking and low way to gain attention. Did she think about what would happen to us, what would happen to the little ones then? What would happen to her mum and dad? Did she.. even for a moment?!
Can I see a pattern in it - yes I can. The question is -can we exterminate the pattern..me and my three sisters and two brothers ..or will we subconsciously submit and pass it on?
To someone
I want You to explain to me why can't You act the way You guide others to act? And how long can You convince Yourself that You're in the control of this situation and that You have the vantage-ground. When will You admit to Yourself that You actually don't need this shit? That You DON'T NEED THIS SHIT!!
Anyway..why are we doing things we do and why is it always so easy to see other's wrong turns..
Because doing that we are all a part of a lie, a part of a sad moreover degrading play and therefore one by one people are starting to drift away because they're week to tell the truth and they don't want to participate in it..don't want to take the responsibility or to give a helping hand which may open their eyes but which may put themselves in an inconvenient and unknown situation. Isn't it just easier to turn your back or not to notice..
I WANT TO UNDERSTAND
I do..but I can't
I want to understand why are people consent to live a self-defeating life.
I'm constantly thinking about my mother. Why can't she just dump the bloody cad whose main purpose in life is to get drunk supersonically, piss himself, puke all over the place, pass out for weeks or to spend his spare time in the casinos leaving her with all the consequences? I used to think that he was the reason of all her troubles and misery but I was wrong - it's her whose doing it. She is destroying herself and she can't even see what she's causing with her actions. The impact to her little son and daughter who can't even stand up for themselves yet..who have the nice and warm picture about mummy and daddy..
I want to know why her partners tend to be alcoholics, why my granddad is an alcoholic and was his father the same..
I want to understand why she thought that killing herself would solve all the problems. I want to understand why she wants sympathy while sympathy for me is just another smirking and low way to gain attention. Did she think about what would happen to us, what would happen to the little ones then? What would happen to her mum and dad? Did she.. even for a moment?!
Can I see a pattern in it - yes I can. The question is -can we exterminate the pattern..me and my three sisters and two brothers ..or will we subconsciously submit and pass it on?
To someone
I want You to explain to me why can't You act the way You guide others to act? And how long can You convince Yourself that You're in the control of this situation and that You have the vantage-ground. When will You admit to Yourself that You actually don't need this shit? That You DON'T NEED THIS SHIT!!
Anyway..why are we doing things we do and why is it always so easy to see other's wrong turns..
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