living my dream

As I said last time - I can't do this anymore..therefore I checked out some little jobs in a web page called www.workabout.uk.com and got a little job in Scotland. Booked the train and ..started my journey on the 17th August. Stayed overnight in Glasgow and arrived Mallaig the next day.
I can stay here till the end of November. What happens next? Who knows!
Mallaig is an idyllic little fisherman's village just by the coast and I'm loving it. I really am happy at the moment and as soon as I can gather some of my thoughts, I'd like to share them..

my super hero

long live sexy hairdressers who can fix everything and make us smile again!!!!!!!

curse the scisssors!

I'm on the night shifts..loooong nights.. I've been keeping my eye on those green scissors hanging on the kitchen wall..equanimously staring at me every time I pass them...i can hear them hanging there..those creepy little green scissors..
One more night to go, then it's the hairdresser's..only this night...and in the morning I can go and have my hair done..by a professional.
I won't touch those scissors, they will not come near to may hair..not this time..I've suffered enough...
hanging
hanging...
empty hook!
Doh!!!! And before I even realised ..I was standing in front of the life sized mirror..horrific scene unrolling in front of me..those green little devil's helpers tightly squeezing my fingers..and hair ..my poor little screaming helpless hair hitting the ground..
There I was ..once again..tresses all over the floor..covering each other..trying to remain their dignity ..I raised my eyes and saw this girl in the mirror..with a BLOOODYY fringe!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!! not again!!!!!!

Scotland it is!

So..I got a job in Scotland ..I'll finish here on Tuesday lunch time..hmm..it gives me approximately five hours to hop on a train and head towards Highlands..it's only 15 and a half hours long journey..
A nice little job in a backpackers hostel til the end of October..it gives me plenty of time to save a bit for my next destination..where ever that will be.
Hmm..lovely..feel like living again! Feel like I'm getting my mojo back again!
Screw the world of future, the world of newest IPad and the world of bank statements..I just want to enjoy the moment..the present. To see and feel..and oh yeah - I can smell the sea then!!!
It's good that I get bored of situations so quickly - it keeps me going :)

before I leave England - I must go to Brighton!

snappadisnap

so here it is ..something snapped in me yesterday..and I thought- I can't go on like this..not any more..and I'm going to escape again! I can already feel the smell of freedom. Once more..I've got my holiday request in for the 17th of July but i think that they can stick the job up ****** because I'm not coming back anymore! We live only once and I don't want to waste my life on watching someone fading away..huh...I'm going to live!!!
All I have to do know is to find a destination..well I've still got seven more days to go..on the night shift..
Will update soon
Mallorca?
Scotland?
Where shall I start...
:D

shall we go on a date..with stranger..?

hahahaha I did something really stupid yesterday..was just browsing The Guardian and "accidentally" clicked on a dating page...guardian soul mates or whatever it was..and registered myself...then spent most of my night browsing through some weird looking and some not so weird looking guys..Petey was quite nice though..and thought to myself - I remember one having an opinion (not so very positive one) about people trying to find so called soul mates from Internet or newspapers or dating agencies...or God knows from where .that there must be something wrong with those people..why else are they still single?!! ...and here I am - joining the long ques of cyber loners..oh..that's pathetic.. :)
But is there anything wrong with me then as well..ehm..I can't answer that one..or can I..
well anyway..fortunately .. somehow..I can't log in to this account anymore...and I think that's for the best..waking up in the morning with fresh and clear head..makes me laugh when I think back about yesterdays brief encounter with a dating site...
No, thank you!
or still....

escape

I asked someone to sell all his belongings and meet me in the airport to disappear with me..to leave everything and come and live a life without boundaries ..without time, without duties...without electricity bills..without could and endless winters..so I could just walk away without returning..without leaving any notice or explanation to my company, relatives, acquaintances..
I always want to disapppear but I don't know why..Maybe I want to run away from expectations.
Anyway..I'm still here..guess some people are attached to their possessions more than I am..I mean it isn't very hard to let go of ..well.pretty much - nothing..

Yesterday I was sitting outside on the terrace while my client was having some "quality time" with her son..and as I looked up the sky, to find some strength, I saw swans soundlessly flying over the house..the wind was warm and soft but empty and bleak.. and at that moment I knew that autumn had crept over us again..then I started to notice maple leaves chasing each other, empty garden chairs, horses trying to find comfort under a tree..and it was all so sad..so beautifully painful..it really hurt. I felt my eyes filling with tears and I knew I had to be strong ..after all - I was on duty..
But a bare thought of having another lonely autumn was just too much. Man is nothing without closeness..
I don't know how much longer can I take it. Moments like this are really testing me