Yesterday I was sitting outside on the terrace while my client was having some "quality time" with her son..and as I looked up the sky, to find some strength, I saw swans soundlessly flying over the house..the wind was warm and soft but empty and bleak.. and at that moment I knew that autumn had crept over us again..then I started to notice maple leaves chasing each other, empty garden chairs, horses trying to find comfort under a tree..and it was all so sad..so beautifully painful..it really hurt. I felt my eyes filling with tears and I knew I had to be strong ..after all - I was on duty..
But a bare thought of having another lonely autumn was just too much. Man is nothing without closeness..
I don't know how much longer can I take it. Moments like this are really testing me