staying in the highland hostel at the moment. The place is a fucking shithole. Never been in a filthiest place before..

Spent my evening out in the pub with a bloody skinhead punk who'se been dismissed from work with anxiety and depression for a year..hahahahahha..we made a good company to each other. But what surprised me was my answer when he asked me whether I'm single or not..I replied I have a girlfriend..and i meant it. I miss Her. I want Her. I think I should tell it to Her not to the fucking strangers and to my blog...

I need Her on my side. Can't get Her out of my head. But I think the damage I made has been to great..She might not understand.. She might not forgive..I don't want this to end like this..I want to start all over.. with a clean sheet. I want to give Her my all respect and love..I want Her to know that I care..Fucking helll!!!..Why haven't we got a manual or a freaking remote control ..which has a massive red "erase" button in the middle..and a reapeat button..

Life is too good to spend it on being selfish..