Well here it is again - the oppressed me..the tiger has been let loose again and oh, my God I really messed it up again..big time this time (as usually) but - huh-what the heck - that's what life's for - for big massive cock ups!!!! And I'm the master of it all!!! OH yeah!! Though I will most definitely burn in hell forever for this one..
The funny side of it is that.. I'm not so disturbed about it as I would've been few years ago..and he's only seventeen..
Well, what can you do - young flesh is young flesh!
But what draws me into situations and temptations like these?
What made me click about this young man?
Was it the atmosphere - the luxurious cocktail lounge in the candlelight..his well hidden talent as a piano player..or the admiration he got from the audience for playing those tunes, for mastering the piano with his skilled fingers running along the keys..what unleashed the sudden lust?
I'm afraid I can not answer that question..but I'm sure the answer is somewhere in my subconscious and it leads back to my childhood (at least that's what they always say in the movies on the psychiatric sofa..)
Hmmm..should we actually hold ourselves back when it seems a bit inappropriate, when it's not exactly the norm of the society..
Should we really?
And miss all that fun that life has to offer us?!!
Think twice..
The funny side of it is that.. I'm not so disturbed about it as I would've been few years ago..and he's only seventeen..
Well, what can you do - young flesh is young flesh!
But what draws me into situations and temptations like these?
What made me click about this young man?
Was it the atmosphere - the luxurious cocktail lounge in the candlelight..his well hidden talent as a piano player..or the admiration he got from the audience for playing those tunes, for mastering the piano with his skilled fingers running along the keys..what unleashed the sudden lust?
I'm afraid I can not answer that question..but I'm sure the answer is somewhere in my subconscious and it leads back to my childhood (at least that's what they always say in the movies on the psychiatric sofa..)
Hmmm..should we actually hold ourselves back when it seems a bit inappropriate, when it's not exactly the norm of the society..
Should we really?
And miss all that fun that life has to offer us?!!
Think twice..
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